31 Farvardin 1405
Quatrain 27 of 75
“Myself when young did eagerly frequent
Doctor and Saint, and heard great Argument
About it and about: but evermore
Came out by the same Door as in I went.”
Reflection · Spring 1405
The eagerness of youth — this is spring. Every spring is a version of this young Khayyam, going out to find the answer, certain that this year the door will lead somewhere new. Come out by the same door as in you went — spring's version of this is the way the year starts with promises and ends with the same essential self that began it. The argument about the New Year, what it will bring, how this year will be different — the door you come out of in Esfand is the same door you entered in Farvardin.
This is not defeat. It is identity — the confirmation that you are consistently yourself through all the seasons of inquiry. The same door is your own door, your specific door, the one that is yours and has always been yours.